A few years ago, North Valley
Friends Church constructed a labyrinth on its property, part of the Peace Trail
project. It’s located in a field, bordered by an oak grove, with a view of the
Chehalem Mountains. It’s become a well-used venue for meditation walks.
In some senses a labyrinth seems
antithetical to Quakerism, with its formal path to the center and its high
symbolism of pilgrimage to Jerusalem. (The drawing is of the Chartres Cathedral
in France, about 1750.) It makes me think of Anglican or Catholic spirituality,
or, more lately, of New Age practices. But here sits a classical labyrinth on
Quaker ground. And I’m one Quaker who uses it regularly.
As I draw on the Quaker conviction
of the light of Christ in every person or culture, the adaptation and use of
other spiritualities, when appropriate, seems entirely a Quaker thing to do. It
certainly fits in with another conviction, that Christ is here among us and
speaks to us in the gathered meeting and through any medium the Spirit chooses.
What I love about the practice of
walking the labyrinth is that it engages my whole person. The physicality of
walking, the sensuality of the beautiful setting, the spiritual focus on
drawing near to God, these all combine to help me worship and pray.
Last Saturday the Spirit spoke to
me as I waited in the center of the labyrinth. The background of the message is
the struggle I’ve faced throughout my life with feelings of being on the
outside, of not belonging. These last few years especially, as I find myself on
the threshold of that dark forest called Growing Old, it sometimes feels like I’m
losing the connections that tell me who I am and to whom I belong.
I’ve always pictured circles of
belonging, and I’ve known that the borders are porous. Communities change,
people come and go, kids grow up and get married, and the circles change. The
changes can be painful, but the pattern is beautiful if Jesus is the artist.
I continually remind myself that
Jesus is the center of my life. The most basic circle shifts and pulsates to
the rhythms of our Lord as He sings the ongoing creation song.
I continually remind myself
because I so easily forget. My losses scream so loudly I often can’t hear the
real song. I actually imagine myself in the middle, unable to hold it together,
wondering where they’ve gone—my children, my grandchildren, my friends, my
country, my idealism, my dreams.
On Saturday Jesus gave me a new
picture of the reality of belonging in his kingdom. It’s a picture of circles,
but with a different configuration.
Not unsurprisingly, it came to me
as I walked the labyrinth at North Valley. It was a beautiful cold November
morning, with mist lying on the surrounding hills. Most of the leaves of the
oaks have fallen, and I could see long distances through the grove.
As I slowly walked around toward
the center, I felt Jesus drawing me, and I responded simply, “I come. I come.
O, my Lord, I come.”
When I reached the center, I
entered one of the smaller circles, the one that lets me face the hills. I
stood in an attitude of being with Jesus and waiting for his voice. And as I
waited he spoke to me from the visual of the inner labyrinth. I saw that the
center of the inner circle is Jesus. The six smaller circles that surround the
center are other places of belonging, with different centers. My basic human circle of belonging is simply Hal and me. I saw my children and their families in the other smaller
circles. The extended Thomas family occupied a circle, as did my North Valley
Friends community. All these smaller circles are open to the central circle. I
am free to enter the other circles, and others are free to enter ours. But all the
going and coming is through the Center. It’s through Jesus that we belong to
one another. And all the circles find their ultimate Center in Jesus.
My vision changed and the smaller
circles put on rainbow colors and began to dance around the Center. While the
Center held steady and bright, the other patterns shifted, like a living
abstract painting, orderly and wild all at once.
Sometimes I find myself alone with
Jesus in the Center. His embrace tells me I belong to him. I’m at home in the
deepest sense possible.
Other times I find myself sharing
the Center with another person as our relationship is mediated and deepened by
Jesus.
And other times I sense the whole body
of Christ, the church, gathered in the Center as we worship the One who holds
it all together.
After my time in the center, I
slowly walked the path back out, aware that Jesus was walking with me and that
we were on a mission, a mission to find those who are still outside. We are on
a mission of invitation. There is a belonging place. There is Someone in the
Center. There is family.
And the doors are open.
It's already December 22 and I'm just now reading this message from your heart to mine. I know I'm in one of your circles and I know I'm sometimes with you in the center. Thank you.
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